My Signature Moves

I could sit here typing all day about why its such a great thing to be me. I'm blessed with the greatest family/friends anyone could ever ask for. I have an excellent relationship with Jesus that is growing stronger by the day. I have the means to support myself through school en route to pursue a very rewarding career (thanks Uncle Sam). Etcetera! Now, for you viewing pleasure, an look into a few of the various reasons why it sucks to be me... Sometimes I wish that I could be a careless and lazy bum like a lot of people. Sometimes I wish that I wasn't such a gentleman and didn't care to seek a woman with an honest and respectful heart. Sometimes I wish that I wasn't such a "peace-maintenance" person and could spitefully bomb back when people piss me off. I wish I didn't want to have the right answer all of the time. Sadly, sometimes I wish I didn't have as much Faith as I do. When I think of the things that drive me, there is nothing that comes to mind concerning recognition and/or the approval of others. Therefore, a lot of my motivation comes from...me. At the same time, that motivation within me often gets stunted when I live my life according to my "signature moves" described above, and see that others can exceed even my own expectations at ease, without even caring about doing things the "right" way. So for me to continue on my path, it takes a lot out of me, knowing that I'm doing things the hard way and reaping far less than someone taking the typical, easy, or selfish route. Sometimes you look like an idiot in front of your friends, who think otherwise. That sucks because others are led to believe that my way is dumb and pointless. I don't know what hurts worse; that or the fact that no one appreciates the depths you go emotionally to do things simply based on the fact that it's the right thing to do. Another reason why I have my own way of doing certain things is simple. Honestly, I wouldn't be able to get away with a lot of the things that others do. We must agree that the more knowledge you have on why and how the world works, the greater responsibility and testing you will receive. Every morning it seems I have to remind myself why I do what I do (duh, b/c it's right) and regardless of how I look to others who don't take life as serious, it is definitely worth it to nevertheless expect the reciprocal outcome of my "signature moves", and also continue faith in Faith itself. What factors divide people in the "default decision-making process"? In what ways is it an awesome thing to be you? In contrast, in what ways does it suck to be you? Don't dog yourself. This is simply a means for you to understand why you do what you do.